RUTHY FUNG

Wow, it’s been ages since i last blogged. Many have asked me to continue..since i have the time today, i shall blog!=) UPdates with me..

1) Graduating very soon!I’m sprinting towards the finishing line..one more exam..hopefully all i pass all my units lah..don’t wanna say so loud first..exam results not out yet=P

2) Recently, God added another sheep under my care..I’m learning to lay down my life for His flock. Many times i feel that i am not capable to take care of 3 sheep. There are times when i am tired of ministry, and this song really encourages me. It’s Thank You by Ray Boltz.

3) Seeking for God’s vision for my life. Lately, God laid a burden in my heart.. I was on the bus when there this child sitting in his pram facing me. My heart cries for this child. He’s sick, he’s got some kind of disease. Tears came rolling down my cheeks..I have a passion for disabled kids/orphans..These kids really need You.. they just look so pure and innocent, but so helpless..my heart cries..

God has been doing many wonderful things in my life! The thing is..am i willing to trust God in all circumstances? esepcially when things don’t go my way.. I was just reminded by mum again about going to national service. Man, just the thoughts of going to national service is painful. I sorta put it on the shelf since i was 17.

I was like..yeah, i got selected but i have many more important things in front of me. Finishing high school, goin to uni and actually graduating from uni. Guess what, time passed so fast! I could still remember the day i was still using dial-up Internet at home, logging in to the PKLN website, hoping that i didn’t get chosen. But guess what, God has a better plan.

Lately, I’ve just been seeking God and for His direction about NS. I have 3 options. To go to NS at the end of this month or in Dec, give corruption (not advisable but i did think about it), escape from it completely(and supposedly go to jail). Out of the three, personally i think the best choice is to go to NS at the end of this month.. But i would have to ask for 2 weeks exemption becoz my exams finish on the 24th, and NS starts on the 14th. And after that, i can focus on getting a job and moving on with life. If i don’t go..then this NS thing will always be at the back of my head..

About giving corruption..hm..i think i’m quite blessed to live in a comfortable family. I think dad can pay it off. However, i want to honor God and believe this is not the right way. Malaysian government is really in need of money now..they will definately let me go if dad pays..but..no!!

To escape from it..they can’t track me down rite..i’m in Aust! But we should obey the authority that God has put over us. Malaysian Government is GOd’s anointed and God’s chosen people..to be leaders in Malaysia. i will obey…even though it’s hard..Obedience is better than sacrifice..

I really don’t want to go.. But i believe GOd has a plan and a purpose for me to go to NS. Of all the people who were born in 1986, 20% were chosen and i am one of them. I believe the Government did not randomly pick me, but this is truly God’s plan that i go.

On the positive side, I can reach out to the students, i can even suggest them to come to QUT(university for the real world), esp those in dilemma, not knowing what to do after NS..and bring them to Christ! woohoo..! I’m sure Daniel 1 awaits them..=) On the other hand, i have so many doubts..Many have drowned, many have died, many were injured, some were raped in NS. Many thoughts came, what if i die? I haven’t fulfil what God has want me to do on this earth yet! What will happen to my 3 abandoned sheep in Brisbane? What about sub-district advance, CCM, discussion group etc etc. Do i have to move out? What about my graduation ceremony that i have been waiting for so long? There’s so much i have to let go..and so many worries.

As i prayed and seeked God during my quiet time.. I believe God is in control of everything. He created the heavens and the earth. What is too difficult for Him? God said..’Don’t you believe that i will take care of everything? Matt 6:34 says ‘Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry itself.’ Praise the Lord..He is in control.

Mum just sent in the letter to see if i could go to NS at the end of this month..with 2 weeks exemption..Pls pray with me..that God will open the way if He wants me to go this time..If all goes well, I will go…willingly, that is=) Just wanna encourage all of you..when things don’t go your way..trust God..!