When i was 13, i was voted by the class to be class monitor. There’s this teacher that everyone hates, she was known as fierce, fat and she wears a mini skirt to school. No one liked her, including me. She has to walk pass my class to get to her office.
One day she walked pass my class and shouted “Where is the class monitor?! The bin is full”. I was already shaking, knowing that i will be in trouble. Unfortunately, the guy class monitor dind’t come to school that day so i got all the scoldings from her. She told me to go with her into the office. I came out in tears, the tone of her voice is indescribable. I hated her since then. This experience was something i will never forget. This affected me a lot because I have always been very sheltered since young. My parents would come to the rescue whenever any problems arise. Believe it or not, i have never been smacked by my parents before. Call me spoilt?
This morning, i got an sms from my friend from Malaysia. Saying that she passed away. As i was preparing for discussions, one of the points was about forgivenes. I really started to ponder about whether i have forgiven her. It’s been so long, 7 years ago. I don’t really think about her, i don’t really hold any grudges, coz i know i won’t see her ever again. Now that i’m in Australia, chances of seeing her is like super low. Even when i heard that she passed away, i don’t even have any feelings at all.. It’s like..’Oh she passed away kinda thing’ Am i heartless?
o.o Said:
on September 7, 2007 at 12:01 am
I wasn’t shock at all after seeing the msg .. =x it’s like … oh … she passed away .. she scolded me few times without any reason at all .. the last time I saw her was last month, at McDonald.. said hi to her but she just ‘jeling’ me.. oh well….. I can only say ” mau wa gong “
Jimmie Thongkul Said:
on September 7, 2007 at 12:33 am
Good story Ruth! Thanks for sharing… God is really teaching you. Thank God for always teaching us!
twcoffey Said:
on September 7, 2007 at 12:40 am
First thing, I don’t think your heartless for not showing compassion, you didnt really know your teacher on a personal level. But forgivness is a powerful action, to me it means you’re willing accept the mistake, look past it and start again. “So when we forgive, we may not necessarily be able to forget, but attempting to forget is part of the package of forgiveness”. It can be a controversial, as to whether forgiveness is the best solution, some wrongdoings are just so bad that finding forgiveness is an impossible task.
Angeline Said:
on September 11, 2007 at 1:24 am
Forgiveness gives the enemy no foothold in your life =)
K.Lo Said:
on September 13, 2007 at 5:53 pm
eh which teacher is this yo?
K.Lo Said:
on September 15, 2007 at 5:00 pm
thanx Ruth, got ur MSN message…
how did he/she die?
MyrnaLie Said:
on September 16, 2007 at 2:56 pm
after read your blog, i remember on my tutor. She’s a mean tutor. But because of her disciplines i feel so lucky to have a tutor like her, i have stronger math foundation than my classmates. So, think back of what you’ve learned from that incident. hehe. i believe there is something unforgotten. Clean up your bin when it’s full =p..
thanks for sharing..
j@n Said:
on September 18, 2007 at 12:59 pm
oops, i put my comment for this post on the one before this one oh….heehe, sowee!
Nilla Said:
on September 29, 2007 at 4:31 pm
i have you have forgiven her,,that’s enough..:)