RUTHY FUNG

Life group was awesome tonight. Instead of having the let’s-split-into-discussions-group time, many of us shared our life testimonies. Some were teary, many we could relate to. God is so gracious to us. Many of us went through tough times and God’s grace is sufficient for us and He would never let us go through what we cannot bear. When we were singing the song Amazing Grace tonight, i was just reminded of the time when i was ‘blind’.

I woke up one day with a very bad headache. It was those sharp pains that would almost kill your brain. I took plenty of panadols and it would only help for an hour or two, and then the pain would come back. I was addicted to panadol. I was on drugs. I went to see doctors after doctors, and no one could tell me what was wrong with my head.

The headache continued, on and off, until i almost couldn’t take it anymore. I was up to a point where i wanted to go to sleep and never wake up again. Basically, die peacefully. And then one morning, i woke up with blur vision. Everything seemed to be so blur. I walked out and i couldn’t read the signs properly on the road. I was like..oh man, this is it! Do i need glasses or what’s with this? I was so scared… the feeling of not being able to see. I was already starting to imagine ‘what if i can’t see forever’ what if..what if… All the what ifs running through my head. 

At that time, i could only turn to God. I did many many check-ups From MRI scans, to CT scans to various blood tests to lumbar puncture. I had more than 10 needles going thru my body in 5 days. Believe it or not, i had to do lumbar puncture 2 times, because the doctor got it contaminated with blood the first time. If you do not know, lumber puncture is when the doctors take out some liquid from your spinal chord, very painful! Especially when u’r still awake and conscious. I screamed my lungs out. Just thinking about the procedure brings tears to my eyes.

Despite all the pain, God was with me all the time! I went through it, knowing God is going through this with me. At that time, i felt so helpless, and i could only rely on God. I had to go on steroids after to decrease the inflammation in my eye. As a result, i grew…fat..yes i gained more than 10kgs. Very embarressing - i cant believe i’m saying this in public. During that time, i also felt the love of the people around me. I don’t think i’ve ever felt so loved in my life before. I had the most visitors in the hospital, i felt like a princess. I couldn’t have felt better. Life group members brought me sushi, pearl tea, mp3 players, ipods, cd players. I had everything! Haha. Felt so spoilt! And of course, God healed me through doctors and medications. Praise God now i am strong and healthy again!

Just wanna share a verse which touched my heart during that time. “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” -2 Corinthians 12:9-10