What a challenging experience. I never knew working life was so tough. Fully agree with QUT’s slogan ‘Welcome to the real world’. My boss is a, if i can say, ‘rough+impolite’ person. I mean, where’s the manners? It’s only my first day, of course i need time to learn, time to practise. And of course i make mistakes, it’s my first job! His expectation of me is lower than what he expected. He’s pretty sarcastic, trust me on this one. I can’t believe he called his staff ‘zhu tou’! You Chinese people would know that it is not a very nice word. Talking about verbal abuse! My heart is crushed, it feels like a million needles just poke through my heart today. Whatever it is, i will continue to persevere, no matter how hard or how tough, I trust God in all things. For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Honestly, my excitement for work has already gone down the drain after today’s experience. I pray that God will change him. I can only depend on God now. If only people at work are like people at church… IF ONLY…*dreams*
Where do you stand in the issue of piracy? I grew up watching movies especially duing my teenage years. Every end of the year, i would go to KL and buy pirated DVDs. Mainly because they’re like RM10 for each DVD and RM3 for a CD. So cheap! Plus, the quality is as good as the original ones. Who would choose to buy originals? You get all the benefits plus you know lar Asians, cheap=best.
Dad use to say that it’s ok if we buy pirated stuff, as long as we don’t sell it. For our own use it’s ok. It is so easy to just download stuff on Limewire or other softwares when you need it. Easy access! Don’t even have to think twice. Just go in, download and two hours later, you’ll be happily watching the movies already.
What about Christian music? By right, under copyright laws, churches are required to pay a fee to print music lyrics passed out during services, or displayed in any way for the congregation. So is a poor church not allowed to sing the song given by God for the edification of the church because it doesn’t have enough money to pay the fee? Many people are moved through the music given as spiritual gifts to Christian musicians. What if another soul was saved because of the music that was played and the church didn’t pay for the fees?
What about people who have no money to buy Christian music? Shouldn’t they have the right to listen to Christian music too? Sharing is caring. Should we be sharing our music so that they know we care for them? Tough call?
However, Romans 13:1 says ‘Everyone must submit to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God.’ The Bible says it all, doesn’t it?
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy peace, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. –Galatians 5:22-23
Lately, I’ve been getting annoyed at the smallest things. Many things seem to get on my nerves. I realised i am the most impatient person in the whole wide world. Ok maybe i’m exagerating. You get my drift. I get annoyed when people come late to meet me. I get annoyed when people do things slower than i expect. I get irritated when people don’t do things straight away what they’ve been told to do. By nature, everything i do is ‘chop chop’. Everything has to be done quick and fast. My definition of now is RIGHT NOW, not 2 minutes later.
God has been speaking to me about patience recently. I was so frustrated few days ago because the program was taking forever to download. I told my friend that and he said to me ‘Be patienttt larrrrrrrr’. Wow! That really hit me…straight through my heart! I was thinking to myself ‘Am i really that impatient?’ Probably. And this morning, i was on my way to uni on the bus when every traffic light that we had to go through was a red light! I was so annoyed! Of course i didn’t say it out loud but deep inside i’m thinking..’FASTER bah!’ Not like the traffic light will turn green if i tell it to. I pray that i can have more patience. Patience to serve God, to listen to other people’s problems, and not for my own selfish reasons. I shall start practising patience from today. It won’t be easy, but i am willing to grow in this area. Mum always say, ‘If there is a WILL, there is a WAY’. Praise God for that!
I went to a job interview this morning. Honestly, my heart was pumping so fast ’cause the boss was quite S-C-A-R-Y. He did not smile at all! And there was me, trying to be prim and proper! So NOT my nature. Praise God i got the job! My first proper job! WOOHOO! He accepted me as his assistant considering i have ZERO work experience! God is good, amen?! I’ll be off to work hopefully sometime next week after exams! Shimei will be my mentor. How cool would that be!! Even words can’t describe how excited I am! Thanks to Melissa who let me take over her job. Praise God for paving the way for me. I believe this job is for me. I have been praying all week that God will open the way if He wants me to work there. Guess what? He did! God is faithful to us when we are faithful to Him! I pray that i can be a blessing, even to the customers who walk into the newsagency!
Here’s a song for dad. You raise me up – Josh Groban version.
Picture of us. Do you see the resemblance?
This poem is dedicated to you, dad!
When i was 1, you taught me how to walk.
I thanked you by running away when you called.
When I was 2, you fed and bathed me.
I thanked you by crying all night long.
When i was 3, you made my meals with love.
I thanked you by tossing my plate on the floor.
When i was 4, you gave me some crayons.
I thanked you by colouring the walls.
When i was 5, you dressed me for the holidays.
I thanked you by making a mess before leaving the house.
When i was 6, you walked me to school.
I thanked you by screaming “I’M NOT GOING!”
When i was 7, you bought me a barbie doll.
I thanked you by throwing it through the next door neighbour’s window.
When i was 8, you handed me an ice-cream.
I thanked you by dripping it all over the carpet.
When i was 9, you paid for my piano lessons.
I thanked you by refusing to practise.
When i was 10, you drove me all day, from school to tuition to birthday parties.
I thanked you by jumping out of the car without looking back.
When i was 11, you suggested a haircut.
I thanked you by crying out loud “I look like a mushroom!”
When i was 12, you warned me not to play the computer.
I thanked you by ‘breaking’ into the computer room after you left the house.
When i was 13, you told me not to date.
I thanked you by having a relationship of 8 months.
When i was 14, you paid for a camp away from home.
I thanked you by forgetting to call home.
When i was 15, you came home from work looking for a hug.
I thanked you by sitting in front of the tv watching Cantonese series.
When i was 16, you were expecting an important phone call.
I thanked you by being on the phone all night.
When i was 17, you taught me how to drive.
I thanked you by driving the car every chance i had.
When i was 18, you suggested certain careers for my future.
I thanked you by saying “I don’t know what i want”
When i was 19, you told me to read the Bible daily.
I thanked you by doing things that contradict the Bible.
When i was 20, you suggested i use my money wisely.
I thanked you by buying unnecessary things.
When i turn 21, you will suggest that i come home often.
I will thank you by moving halfway across the world!
Dear dad,
Happy father’s day! You’re simply indescribable and irreplaceable. Thank you for all your love, care and concern, and most importantly, being so patient with me. You have help shaped me into who I am today. I hope I wasn’t a difficult daughter to raise up. There are many times when I do not appreciate your hard work. But still, you choose to love me and care for me, just like my Father in heaven. Many say that I’m a photocopy of you. Yes, I’m proud to be daddy’s girl!
I thought i prepared well for my exam yesterday. But.. when i saw the first exam question, i was stunned. My head went blank. I lost confidence and there goes my whole paper. I did really badly. I hope i did not fail my exam. All I could do now is let God do the rest. I can’t really change my answers anymore. What has been done, is already done. The devil has been putting many many thoughts into my mind. It feels like all my dreams are shattered, my mind scattered with horrible thoughts, my world crumbling down. Feels like the end of the world. It was so hard for me to overcome these thoughts. It’s a struggle. A BIG BIG struggle. At times like this, when i am weak and vulnerable, it is so easy for the devil to pull me down. When i praised God today, it feels like it is not from my heart, but merely from my mouth. I NEED to overcome! I CAN overcome! All i can do now is pray and pray and pray. And focus on my next exam paper and not how badly i did yesterday. Please pray for me. Praise God for His promise.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. –John 14:27
At shepherding today i learnt about my spouse selection. It is probably the second most important decision in my life, after making my decision to follow Christ all the days of my life. One that loves God, someone that complements me to serve God and someone that shares the same vision as me!
I heard the news today. Malaysia’s Prime Minister is getting re-married. His first wife died of breast cancer in 2005. Since they are Muslims, they are allowed to marry up to 4 wives. Apparently he’s getting married to a woman who was his wife’s brother’s wife. But they got divorced. Man, speaking about dramas. I mean, they’re related!!! Marrying his former sister-in-law. Any thoughts about this? I wonder if they actually talked through their visions in life. Or was it like a ‘i love you and you love me so lets get married’ kinda thing, mainly i think that because his wife died not too long ago.
Ruth in the Bible re-married when her husband died. I was just thinking…will i re-marry if my husband died early? I pray that he won’t! Dying together would be good!hehehe..How romantic!
Rate yourself from 1-10. Are you much of an influencer? Last week, Pastor Wilson talked about impacting the world. When i first heard it, i thought about people like Reinhard Bonnke and Nick Juvicic. I am so inspired on how much they can impact the world. Millions and millions of people go to Reinhard’s rallies and he wins so many souls for Christ each time! Nick, a person without limbs can even live a normal life just like anyone else!
Honestly, i inspire no where near as many people as him. However, it is not the end of the world! Personally, i think we could impact other people by living a Christ-like life. When we’re at uni, when we’re on the bus, we can be the salt and light even to strangers! When you are on a bus full of people, an old lady walks in, do you give her your seat or do you prefer to stay in your comfortable seat? Let me share something I find really interesting. Just a pinch of salt can make the whole bowl of soup salty. This means that us Christians, being the minority on this earth can impact the whole world!
In our church ministries, we can impact other people as well. We can set good examples for others to follow. Do you know that people look at you? Sometimes i think that..I’m ONLY Ruth! Who’s gonna look up to me? But trust me, people do. Have you ever felt that you are not good enough? I do! There are so many times when i feel like i don’t know how to lead a discussion group or lead praise and worship. But, I learned to depend on God and learn through experience. ’God does not call the qualified but He qualifies the called. ’
Look at our celebrities today, Britney Spears and Paris Hilton. They are definately impacting the world… but are they portraying Christ-likeness? What are your thoughts?
I was sitting in front of the computer the WHOLE day doing my 3000 word marketing assignment. Steph and I encouraged and challenged each other to do our assignment. However, at 10.30pm, Steph decided to have a nap and wake up at 2am to continue her sudy. While Steph went to bed, i continued doing my assignment. At 11.30pm, I heard Steph open her door. She walked out of her room with clothes in her hands. And this was how our conversation began…
Ruth: *Turns back* You’re awake already???!
Steph: *with serious expression* Yeah, it’s 2am already, Good morning!
Ruth: Whatttt?! It’s 11.30 *points at clock*
Steph: No! It’s 2am already!! And you’re still up doing your assignment!
Ruth: It is 11.30!!! *points at computer clock* Go back to bed!!
Steph: No!! *stares at clock with eyes half open* ohhhh…it is too! I remember now…the alarm at 11.30 was calling me to go to bed.. I set another one at 2am…
Ruth: HAHAHA *couldn’t stop laughing*
Man, that was the funniest thing. I should have taken a photo of her face! She looked so serious!! Can’t believe she got mixed up. She ended up showering and getting changed into jeans, as though she’s gonna go out! She even put on earrings and admire her beautiful skin at 12 midnite!! This happened an hour ago and i’m still not over it yet! Housemates brightens our lives..don’t you reckon?
9am class this morning. I was so tempted to sleep in after snoozing my alarm for a few times. Despite my tiredness, i jumped out of bed and rushed to the bus stop as it was already 8.10am! And i knew i had to be at that lecture because it was the last lecture of the semester. Like all revision lectures, we might get tips for the exam. On my way to the bus stop, i used the zebra crossing to get to the other side of the road. On this cold rainy morning, i was still yawning away and still having sleep in my eyes. I looked both sides before crossing the road and there was no cars! So I walked half way and this car drove past right in front of my eyes!!! Insane man!!! I only had a glimpse of the car.. I think he was speeding at 80km/h. Seriously, 1 more inch and i would be in heaven right now. This reminds me of Lindsay Lohan’s movie Mean Girls, the part where the girls almost got run over by the bus. I felt exactly like that!! No doubt it was God’s spiritual covering and protection over me. This incident really got me thinking… If God took my life today, how many people would be at my funeral? Is there anyone i haven’t forgiven yet? Live everyday like as-if it is the last day of your life!
